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Random Musings: A Moment of Transparency…

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Moment of Transparency: There is truly only 1 man I have ever been in Love with. I have liked fondly, cared for, craved, and had love for others but only one has crawled into the deep recesses of my heart, soul, & mind and stayed there.

I still love him to this day and if I am honest am still “in-love” with him too. I will always love him, at his best and at his worst. I think it’s because I see him clearly for who and what he is….not just an ideal or a representation of what I wish him to be. He is amazing and awful at the same damn time…lol.

He has made me smile, laugh, & blush and he has also made me cry. He has made me feel beautiful and like I don’t matter. He is all that I wish a man to be and many of the things I can’t stand. He is free like the wind and often an island unto himself. He is giving and selfish, kind and cruel, open and secretive, honest and a liar.

He is a paradox but if I am honest I wouldn’t want him to be any other way.

It’s easy to believe that if only “they” would be just what you want them to be that life would be perfect and so simple but the truth is that loving him just the way he is has forced me to explore and understand Me. Pushed me outside of my comfort zone and made me accept that at the end of the day I, and I alone, hold the key to my happiness. (not another being, not a relationship status, & not who loves me in return.)

He is my Soulmate and I love him with all that is in me but he is not my man. I do not belong to him and he does not belong to me. Our connection is not always rainbows and butterflies but it is honest and it is real…and it is Beautiful ~ Twin Spirit

Random Musings: Just Do It Anyway

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When the world doesn’t understand the reason why you Sing…Just Sing Anyway

When they do not understand why you choose to Smile in the midst of the storms…Just Smile Anyway

When they question your motives and heart for doing what you feel is Right…Just Follow Your Heart Anyway

When they mock and criticize the platform or methods “You” choose in the Fight for Change…Just Keep Fighting Anyway

When they attempt to shame you because you dare to think for yourself and have a mind of your own…Just Keep Thinking Anyway

When the world attempts to Dictate Your Position, Silence your Voice, or Dim Your Light…Just KEEP Shining Anyway

There are many paths one can take to effect change…Each one unique yet Equally Powerful and Important.

Find Your Path, Your Voice, Your Cause, Your Purpose, Your Platform….and Just Do It YOUR Way

~ Twin Spirit

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Random Musings: Ode to the Queendom 2017

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ODE TO THE QUEENDOM 2017!! I love all of my sisters in every shape, size, color, & walk of life. Everyone of YOU!! Your feminine energy is magical and powerful. We are all beautiful reflections of Yin energy manifested. I wish for you what I wish for myself: Wholeness that blooms from the inside, Freedom to live the Life your Spirit craves, Acceptance of the Gifts you possess, Acknowledgement of the Value you bring, Realization that the Magic we possess is a Real thing not just a catch phrase, Honoring the Heart of You.

The releasing of any limiting ways of thinking & being, Letting go of the notion that Love comes from anywhere but within Us and is in infinite supply, Embracing the Divine Power & Beauty of your Sexuality is life changing as you realize your sexual energy is key to your creative energy, Understanding that your ability to Emote & Feel Deeply is a Super Power.

Understanding that Your Worth is not tied to and never was determined by who does or does not love, want, support, or accept you nor is it determined by the thickness of your waist, the fullness of your breast, the wetness of your vagina, the texture of your hair, the shade of your skin, or the roundness of your behind. Knowing your physical beauty doesn’t even begin to compare to the majesty & depth of the inner beauty of your heart, mind, & soul. Standing firm in the Knowledge that You, every single part of you, belongs ONLY to You and you my dear are Amazing.

Releasing of jealousy & insecurity because they are illusions based in fear and a lack mindset. We are not in competition one with the other but billions of brilliant bright rays of light reflecting various incarnations of God energy expressing itself fully, Each uniquely unfolding and revealing vast power & unlimited possibilities.

I wish for you inner peace, courage to design the life of your dreams, the gift of self care, comfort in moments of uncertainty, the power to hold on & the innate wisdom and strength needed to know when it’s time to let go. I wish you boldness, clarity, prosperity, vision, laughter, passion, freedom, & joy that resonates from places deep within you. The path is yours to choose & the picture yours to paint. There is no “RIGHT” way only the way that works for YOU!!

You are a Woman, a Goddess, & a Warrior. An Alchemist, teacher, healer, master manifestor, creator extraordinaire, a weaver of dreams, and giver of life. A seer, a deep thinker, intuitive being, the glue that binds generation to generation and dimension to dimension. There is nothing weak about you and you need NO ONES permission to Shine & Glow …because you already DO. Illuminated by the divine eternal flame. The original Spark. All that we are is energy, and that energy has no boundaries. It is infinite, it is the invisible force that permeates all space, and it is the force that connects all things because it is all things. Everything in the universe is connected by this energy. You are this energy. Goddess…God Is You The power to change your life and the world resides in YOU 🙂

Words by & Shared with the deepest of Love & Respect direct from the heart of Me ~ Your Sistar Twin Spirit

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Random Musings: I think I want a husband & a wife…

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Honestly I think I would enjoy having a boyfriend & girlfriend or a husband and a wife if things escalated. Don’t laugh or gasp…lol…I’ve given it some serious thought. I can see both the beauty & challenges that might be involved but believe it could be an amazing and worthwhile experience. Hey fellas be honest, having a wonderful girlfriend or wife in your life is a beautiful thing. Heck woman are master nurturers, we give and love in a way that is magical. I give of myself fully and truly would enjoy experiencing being on the receiving end of that type of love too.

I know it sounds strange to many, but I truly have no desire for my lover to be fully dependent on me for all of their needs. I am okay with another fulfilling them in areas that I am not good at, unavailable for, don’t want to do, or have no interest in. I have felt this way for a long time. I’m not jealous of my love connecting & sharing their life with others. I want the people I love (platonically or romantically) to be happy & fulfilled even if the source of said joy doesn’t come from me.

Plus how awesome would it be to share all of the domestic responsibilities amongst more than 2 individuals. From financial to parenting. It decreases the burden and allows space for everyone to explore many other aspects of who they are without worrying about the ball being dropped with more hands and hearts to catch it.

To me love is also about Freedom & Growth. I want my partner to spread their wings and fly.

For those of you who instantly envisioned the sexual aspect of this dynamic I believe that too could be a wonderfully fulfilling experience as well in whatever way it chose to unfold.

Honestly I think fear and jealousy keep many of us from allowing life to introduce us to some deeply enlightening experiences.

Yes, this may not be the path for everyone but I think it could be pretty transformative, nurturing, healing, rewarding, & fun done from a place of genuine love, care, friendship, & respect.

Just my honest thoughts

~TwinSpirit

Random Musings: LOVE-A New Paradigm

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“I am not afraid of relationships or commitment. Far from it. I am made for partnership and shine within a healthy loving connection. I honestly desire and prefer deep, intimate, long-term connections over short lived surface-level encounters. I simply choose not to have to exchange ownership of my heart, mind, body, freedom, dreams, & soul for outdated concepts of relating or what a relationship should look like.

We are still burdened with antiquated ideas about what men and women are supposed to look for and expect in a partner/spouse or relationship. These traditional and deeply embedded ideas are on a collision course with the facts on the ground and many of them are diminishing to our spirit. It’s time to open up and explore new relationship paradigms.

The new paradigm relationship is heart to heart and even higher level connections. The joy of this type of relating must be experienced to be fully understood.

In the new paradigm of YOU being, the ONE rather than some being outside of yourself, the power and truth of who you are is activated and a new understanding of your own freedom and power is now alive in every cell of your body to the core matrix of your soul – to be who you are. You no longer project the responsibility for your happiness, well-being, and expectation out onto your partner for you know that all of these states are an inside job.

This frees up the nature of relationships to expand and transform…to become more of a place that inspires and encourages our growth, movement, a place where all things are possible, a place where we support one another in becoming the “BEST VERISONS” of ourselves (whatever that might look like) rather than a prison of fear, where we cling to old beliefs of ownership, jealousy, co-dependency, punishment, emotional manipulation, & control and where we hold one another back out of fear that we might lose what we have. Where we see our partners as beings we own and who owe us total subjugation to prove they love us. Where we make someone else the sole source of our happiness and contentment. A realm filled with limiting experiences rather than being a place that gives those we love wings and our love encourages them to Soar & Fly and Be all that they dream and desire to BE!!

Call me a naive dreamer or an obstinate nonconformist if you like but my spirit knows that the idea we have of LOVE expands much deeper than we can even imagine and I choose to allow myself the opportunity to experience ALL that Life, Love, Connection, & the Human Experience has to offer…and I am not willing to sacrifice that potential by Living Small, Dimming my Light, Not using my Divine Gifts, Not Pursuing My Dreams, Not Speaking My Truth, Hiding my Desires, & Being Afraid to GO FOR IT when Connection Presents Itself, Pretending my needs don’t matter, or settling for a mediocre Relationship with someone who is afraid to FLY simply to maintain the status Quo.

Call me Selfish, call me Crazy, Call me anything you like but this is “My Life” and I choose to Live it Deeply, Fully, Creatively, Expansively, & Beautifully. I will not settle for relationships that do not move me, grow me, and stir my soul. Loving You should NEVER require sacrificing the Heart &Soul of ME. It should be a mutually value adding experience to every Spirit involved.

Yes…I Love you enough to Set you Free to Find the Love That Your Spirit Needs and I Love Myself enough to know that it’s okay if I simply decide to just Choose Me ~ Written & Shared From a place of Transparency, Honesty, & LOVE” ~ Twin Spirit

Random Musings: Love Boldly!!

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“LOVE Me Boldly!
No timid intentions.
Let your actions speak loudly the desires of your heart.
Uncertainty breeds insecurity, so
if you want me, Let me know.

I desire a partner who compels my strength and
who is not afraid to love me fully & freely.
not afraid to laugh with me.
not afraid to cry with me.
not afraid to move me.
not afraid to explore with me.
not afraid to grow with me.
not afraid to be open with me.
not afraid to inspire me.
not afraid to want me.
not afraid to need me.
not afraid to take risk with me or live out your fantasies with me.
not afraid to be your best and worst self with me.
not afraid to go deep with me in every way imaginable.

One who will stay when life gets messy but not because we are in a comfortable rut, or because we are to afraid to admit we desire more, or because it’s been so many years, or because we are content with the status quo as it doesn’t require us to face ourselves and own our shit, or because we’ve gotten so comfortable with our dysfunction that it feels like it’s okay, our because it would require us to stand on our own two feet and be independent rather than codependent, or because we are afraid to be honest and admit we have settled for less than our soul truly desires, or simply because it’s just easier to stay…

But one who STAYS because they cannot imagine another soul that they would rather get messy with and trust me it will get messy , travel the world with, slay dragons with, create with, build with, live their dreams with, fail & succeed with, serve the world with, dance in the rain with, expand their mind with, become the best version of themselves with, break down walls with, heal hearts with, tap into the essence of their spirit with, unleash their passions with, share quiet moments with, do everything and nothing with until they are no more…..

I crave a partner who will challenge me to ask questions, go deeper, never settle, & push harder.

Who will hold me accountable for my own happiness and join me in creating the life of our Dreams….TOGETHER!

and equally important One who will allow me to LOVE him boldly too.” – Twin Spirit