(My Breakdown: I Breathe ~ Written By: TwinSpirit ♥ )
“Breathing in and out. Taking each breath in slowly and deliberately. Exhaling with intent. Right now I feel like I can’t breathe. Like if I don’t focus on each breath my soul may slip away from my body and the version of me that I am right now will cease existing. Each moment I struggle to focus on the now…to not allow myself to drift away into the pains and hurts of yesterday or to melt into the fears and worries of tomorrow.
I just sit here and I breathe…inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale…I breathe. As the hot tears stream down my face..I breathe. As the tightness wells in my throat..I breathe. As feelings of sadness, loss, & regret wash over me in hot waves…I breathe. As my heart pounds damn near out of my chest…I breathe. I breathe. I breathe.
I realize that I am still here…so I breathe. I acknowledge that although I am feeling pain that at least I can still feel which means I am still connected to the heart of me..so I breathe. I hear my heart beating in my ears like the boom of my ancestors drum as if to signal & celebrate that I am still alive and have so much more living to do…so I breathe. I feel a warmness move across my face & skin it embraces me and soothes me in its gentle caress…so I breathe.
I feel a gentle stirring and rumble from the center of me that grows in intensity like thunder as a storm begins to roll in…so I breathe. I hear a whisper from deep within it says to me over and over You are Loved because You are Love. You are Loved because You are Love, You are Loved because You are Love..Over and over the whisper sounds…So I breathe. I breathe. I breathe. I breathe”
( I Breathe ~ Written By: TwinSpirit ♥ )
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