I am feeling so wonderful. My spirit is light and my heart is free. At this moment I feel very inspired to write.
I take my seat in my favorite chair at my favorite desk to begin sharing my thoughts for the day.
I glance to the left and catch a glimpse of a woman. My what a round fat face she has? Look at her hair. Those arms sure could use some toning. Is that a double chin I see? OMG what is she thinking??? On and on the negative thoughts spring forth one after the other.
I feel a sadness come over me and my energy level sinks quickly.
How awful that my first thoughts of this woman were filled with negativity and criticism
and how sad that the woman I was speaking about so harshly was me after seeing my reflection in the mirror.
I tore into me with no mercy and no consideration. I ripped me to shreds all in the matter of 1 minute.
Where did all of that come from?
It is so easy and natural for me to see the beauty in others and to see the beauty in the world that surrounds me.
But sometimes it is a challenge to see and maintain that same level of appreciation for me.
At times I have spoken to myself in a manner that I would never allow anyone to speak to me. I have said things that I would never tolerate from another soul.
Who is that mean, insecure little person and why do I allow her to reside within my castle walls? Why don’t I ask her to leave or just kick her out? Why do I keep her around?
Why do I listen to her? Why did I allow her to change my mood instantly? Why don’t I put her on MUTE?
Well her name is Negativity and she thrives from attention. She gains more power and energy from my focus. She is a culmination of old untrue thoughts I have received that I have not released . She is not good for me but I hold on to her. She is not a match to the truth of who I am and what I desire.
Something in me urges me to look even more closely at her. To really honestly look at her. To “see” her.
So I go deeper. Wow….in all actuality when I close my eyes and really listen to her, she is merely pointing out things (thoughts, feelings, beliefs, energy) that I have encountered on this journey. Things I have heard, seen, felt, witnessed, been taught, & exposed to. Things that I have held and claimed as my own when in truth these things do not belong to me, they are no good for me, and I need to rid myself of them.
When I really see her for who she is I realize that she seeks to hold no power over me.
She simply points out the fallacies and it is up to me to acknowledge them and then LET THEM GO.
In truth She is my ally not my enemy. I have fought her and battled her for years to no avail, but today I see her for who she truly is.
She is my partner in truth. She reveals it and I must heal it.
She was never here to hurt me, only to assist me in staying on path. She is part of my navigation system and is here to help me move fluidly through the experience.
When her words and revelations have caused me to feel hurt, pain, discomfort, sadness, fear, anger or worry. She is only attempting to show me that I am off path and therefore out of alignment with my true nature and my desires. She is attempting to guide me back to my bliss, to my purpose, to my vortex, to my center.
She is attempting to warn me that a situation or experience is in contrast to the reality I desire.
She shows me the lie so that I can replace it with my truth.
My truth is what evaporates the lies.
My love is what erases the sadness, pain, worry, anger and fear.
My LIGHT is what eradicates the Darkness.
To truly know her is to Love her.
I can now embrace her and thank her for the role she plays in my life as I continue on this Journey to Self Discovery.
My Observation for the Day: “What we see depends mainly on what we look for.” ― John Lubbock
With peace & a greater understanding,